Constantly Fucked Over/Up

Thursday, May 12, 2005


Well, I called my ex-best friend a few days after her birthday and wished her happy birthday. I did that just to show that I am not a bitter bitch who stopped calling people just because of a huge argument although certain parties have apologized.

She sounded quite surprised and obviously there was some tension in the air. We spoke at a clipped tone, like we were a couple of 2 year-olds just learning to talk. At the end of the conversation, I think she was waiting for something, like an apology maybe. I so did not give her the satisfaction. I said 'Happy Birthday! Bye!' and hung up.

I guess they still blame me, the Evil Bitch Monster of Death for that event. Dammit it all. Oh well, what to do...

Monday, January 10, 2005

Still Angry

Hello all… I hope you read the source of my bane. That happened a few months ago and we’re still not talking to each other. Click the title to see the explanation about the whole thing.

Anyway, I felt very angry and pissed when I found out that I was blamed for all this! Why me? How come I was the only one in the wrong? Can anyone please tell me why I was the only wrong one?

Sure, the post was eeeevil but if it hurt you and you feel all vengeful, why take it out on something else? Why deliberately jeopardize my friendship with someone else? You have a problem with me, deal with me! This is just like what D’Hoffryn, Lord of the Vengeance Demons, told Anya in Buffy the Vampire Slayer, “Why go for the kill when you can go for the hurt?”

Which is so fucking true in this case… I am still thinking about her possible motives though… if she really did wanna hurt me she should have just done something else instead of this coz the other girl got hurt as well! all I know now is that the backstabber is best friends with my ex-best friend. So maybe that was the motive, to erase me and take my place. But she hates my ex-best friend’s bitchy personality as much as I did. I bet you my ass she failed to mention that when I was talking bad about my ex-best friend, the backstabber joined in on the fun as well!

Oh well, I’m not losing anything… at least now I’m not gonna worry about suddenly finding myself having to pay for dinner that I did not eat! And that girl did not even apologize or feel bad about it too! She said it was my fault and my fault alone. During Eid, she called me and told me that she’d forgiven all that I did wrong to her when it was supposed to be the other way around. Normally people ask for forgiveness during Eid, that is the norm and the culture. Why she did not ask for forgiveness? Coz she blames me for it 100%, that skanky ho!

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Testis One Two!

This is a test post people, a test post! Whaddayaknow? It works!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Here It Is!

Hey Guys, I'm linking back the post that cost me two friendships. One was 7 years old and the other was just barely one year (so no surprises there when she went and backstabbed me!). I had deleted it once I knew the girls had read it. But now I am putting it forth.

The reason you ask? Well, I recently unexpectedly bumped into the backstabber and she said hi, so I called her office the next day. It's true. She blames me for all these stuff and what she did was very justified. Whatever. I have apologized. You guys'll see.

They did something to me. I was angry and wrote the post. The post pissed of the backstabber so she backstabbed me ie told on me to the other girl that I have been talking about her behind her back and now she's not talking to me. My friend of 7 years is not talking to me! I'm not looking for validation or whatever, I am just venting!

Click the title or click here.